How to save the marriage, the derailment

Blue teacher, Hello! I am a 23 year-old girl, said his girls, it is becauseof marriagemore than two years, we have never truly had to do a woman's happiness. My husband and I are the only first-time married life, from the first start, he is only a minute. Now I'm afraid to have sex, my body is already on his heart is averse, he will not kiss and touch not only makes me feel happy, on the contrary, I feel sick, as if there is a dirty thing stuck in my body, hide all escape, I can not change this feeling of my own, I know my own psychological problems, including his now slightly improved after treatment later, I still get out of his shadow this heart. To this end, I proposed to hima divorce, but he has been adhering to, Bingju on me well, all Bao Ta Suo You's home was, and himself never overspend, in the I body Que 1:00 Ye Busheng. I am now in a dilemma, on the one hand not so stay at my taste, such as chewing the wax of themarriage, on the other hand I do not have the heart to leave such a such a good man to me. Recently, I even have a distorted idea of moving, but also a friend said, I can Xing Huai separated out and find other men to satisfy their own ... ... blue teacher, I now really hurting, I go from here, you Can you help me?